damn it fuck damn it!
He’s gone - out of my life.
He left without saying goodbye - never to be seen again.
If I only spoke up - told him how I felt…
He’d still be here, he and I.
I’d hold him tight and stand up for him.
FUCK!
I’m useless.
Why’d he have to go?
You stupid fuckers!
Why do you have to be afraid so?
ASSES!
WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE JUST LEFT HIM ALONE?!
WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST LET HIM LEAVE!?
YOU FUCKING PUSHED HIM OUT!
OUT OF MY LIFE!
I HATE YOU!
I could’ve protected him…
held him when he cried…
held all the world at bay, just so he could live.
But, no.
YOU had to push him away.
YOU HAD TO CALL HIM NAMES
YOU HAD TO TALK SHIT!
DAMN YOU ALL TO HELL.
FUCK YOU.
I DISPISE YOU.
RUINING MY LAST HOPE - FOREVER.
I want to scream!
Rail at you!
But - it won’t do…
I want to slap you,
Lash out, share my anger.
But - it won’t…It can’t. I can’t.
I’m lost. Scared. Angry. Sad.
All because of you you bastards!