So, I just got home… *sigh* I’m rather tired. My feet are sore and my alergic reactions are getting stronger and stronger. I really need to figure out what’s irritating my skin, or if it’s just dry skin. I feel so blah. I haven’t been to the gym in ages. I wasted today entirely, I mean… I woke up, put on Smallville Season Two (OMG! It’s so good!) and lay in bed watching it all day. My room’s a mess again - why can’t I seem to keep it clean? I mean, it’s not that big of a deal… I dunno…it’s just nuts. Call me crazy, but yeah. And I feel totally drained by the end of the day somedays. I really need to make sure I get TWO days off in a row. I’m feeling so blah so quickly. I mean, I don’t feel healthy. I need a vacation - or something to go RIGHT for once. I feel like I’m barely keeping up in my real life - the outpost isn’t much of a strain anymore now that I’m not worried about being in the chats all the time. I can handle all the administrative stuff…writing proposals …making sure that Minas Tirith gets done. Wow - am I ever glad to have Andrew around to help me. I don’t know what I would do other wise - and my wizard team, magnifico. I’m so lucky to have these people around…even though sometimes they get busy.
I feel like I need to get home … time to get back to my roots and figure out who I am. I feel more lost NOW than I did before I left for London. *le sigh*
What is this feeling?
Why does it drown me so?
Like a tsunami come to wash away my life
- my essence, my soul.
Who are my friends now?
I don’t ever take the time to let them know I care.
They wander in and out…
I’ve yet to keep one friend so strong and so pure.
Talia, Wes, Noah, Gang… I hope you know I still love you.
I hope you get to see this soon.