Kathryn’s Blog

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown.

I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms

And is it worth the wait
All this killing time?
Are you strong enough to stand
Protecting both your heart and mine?

Who is the betrayer?
Who’s the killer in the crowd?
The one who creeps in corridors
And doesn’t make a sound

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

My love has concrete feet
My love’s an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall

I’m so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I’m so heavy, heavy
So heavy in your arms

This will be my last confession
I love you never felt like any blessing
(Ohhhh)
Whispering like it’s a secret
Only to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart

Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(i’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(i’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms
(i’m so) Heavy heavy i’m so heavy in your arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
my beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown

I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he had me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground

I’m so heavy, heavy in your arms.

Heavy, i’m so heavy in your arms.

You say ”I love you boy”
I know you lie
I trust you all the same
I don’t know why

‘Cause when my back is turned
My bruises shine
Our broken fairytale
So hard to hide

I still believe it’s you and me ‘til the end of time

When we collide we come together
If we don’t we’ll always be apart
I’ll take a bruise I know your worth it
When you hit me hit me hard

Sitting in a wishing hole
Hoping it stays dry
Feet cast in solid stone
I’ve got Gilligan’s eyes

I still believe it’s you and me ‘til the end of time

When we collide we come together
If we don’t we’ll always be apart
I’ll take a bruise I know your worth it
When you hit me hit me hard

You said love was letting us go against what
Our future is for…

Many of horror
Our future’s for many of horror

I still believe it’s you and me ‘til the end of time

When we collide we come together
If we don’t we’ll always be apart
I’ll take a bruise I know your worth it
When you hit me hit me hard

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we’re going down
They’ve got
All the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we’re going down

Let’s paint the picture
Of the perfect place
They’ve got it better then when anyone’s told ya
They’ll be the King of Hearts, and you’re the Queen of Spades
Then we’ll fight for you like we were your soldiers

I know we’ve got it good
But they’ve got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up, but soon they’ll take us down
Before anybody’s knowing our name

They’ve got…

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we’re going down
They’ve got
All the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we’re going down

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down

Do you think I’m special?
Do you think I’m nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can’t be possible… the rain can fall
Only when it’s over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it’s far away.
Over the world that’s dead.

They’ve got, they’ve got…

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we’re going down
They’ve got
All the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we’re going down
[Repeat]

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down

It don’t matter what you see
I know I could never be
Someone that’ll look like you.
It don’t matter what you say
I know I could never fake
Someone that could sound like you.

All the right friends in all the right places
So yeah, we’re going down
They’ve got
All the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we’re going down
[Repeat]

They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down
They say
Everybody knows, everybody knows where we’re going
Yeah, we’re going down

Yeah, we’re going down [repeat x2]

All the right moves… heeey
Yeah we’re going down
They say
All the right moves… heeey
Yeah we’re going down

In the quiet of the shadow
In the corner of a room
Darkness moves upon you
Like a cloud across the moon

You’re a-wearing all the silence
Of a constant that will turn
Like the windmill left deserted
Or the sun forever burn

So don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
Your whole life is here
No eleventh hour reprieve
So don’t forget to breathe

Keep your head above water
But don’t forget to breathe

And all the suffering that you’ve witnessed
And the hand prints on the wall
They remind you how it’s endless
How endlessly you fall

And the answer that you’re seeking
For the question that you found
Drives you further to confusion
As you lose your sense of ground

So don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
Your whole life is here
No eleventh hour reprieve
So don’t forget to breathe

Keep your head above water
But don’t forget to breathe

Breathe….

Don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
You know you are here
But you find you want to leave
So don’t forget to… breathe

Just breathe
Just breathe
Just breathe…
Just breathe…
Just breathe…

The tide is high
I’ve never been so low
You got room to grow

You can never look up
You can’t ever look down
You get kicked around

But I built it with sand
And I built it with rock
I built it with all of the
Things that I’m not
And I watch from the hill
As it burns to the ground
I can still see the smoke
From my train out of town

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

I close my eyes
Scared of what I saw
Are you mad at all?
Been an open book
Been a slamming door
Apple of the trojan war

(chorus)

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

Drink a little bit
Dance a little bit
Take a chance
I lose it all
I have no remorse no regrets
When I’m hanging from
This seventeenth floor

The tide is high
Never been so low
You got room to grow

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

Fire on the mountain
Through the freeze
Save yourself
There’s evil
In the garden
But you don’t see it
I can tell

How do you sleep while the city’s burning
Where do you go when you can’t go home
How do you drink when there’s blood in the water
Where do you turn when the world moves on
When the world moves on, hey
When the world moves on, [x3]
Yeah, oh Yeah, oh yeah world moves on
That world moves on, yeah

Feelin’ worn down like a piece of glass
Doesn’t take too much to get yourself to feed your monkey
Tell some white lies
Make and swallow them
You don’t see just how you got into this situation

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep for something better than the secrets you keep me down
Just lay down, here, close to me
And tell me what you want from me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

Wide awake now and your monkey’s dead
You so perfect that you never really need nobody
Put your hands down
You’re among your friends
You just take and take and take and take and take and take and

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep but you’re no better than the secrets you keep stay down
Just lay down, here, close to me
Pretend you’ll never leave me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

(Chorus)
Tell me what you want child
Give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

Two weeks late like a surplus reprieve
I found a hair the length of yours on my sleeve
I wound it round and round my finger so tight
It turned to purple and a pulse formed inside

I said I knew the beat ‘cause it matched your own beat
It’s become my engine my own source of heat
The sea between us only amplifies the sound waves
Every hum and echo and crash paints my cave.

The sun is gone and the flowers rot
Words are spaces between us
And I should’ve been drown in the rivers I’ve found of token lost
And I should’ve been down when you made me insecureSo break me down if it makes you feel right
And hate me now if it keeps you alright
You can break me down if it takes all your might
‘cause I’m so much more than meets the eye

Say whatever you have to say, I’ll stand by you.
Do whatever you have to do, to get it out and not become a reactionary
To hurt the ones you love you know you never meant to but you do
oh yeah you do

Still I need your sway, because you always pay for it
And I, and I need your soul cause you’re always soulful
And I and I need that heart, cause you’re always in the right places.

I took a bite out of a mountain range, thought my teeth would break the mountain down.
Lets go, I want to go all the way to the horizon.

I took a drink out of the ocean and I’m treading water there before I drown.
Lets dive, I want to dive to the bottom of the ocean.
I took a ride, I took a ride, I wouldn’t go there without you.
Lets take a ride, we’ll take a ride. I wouldn’t leave here without you.

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.

‘Cause you tear us apart, with all the things you don’t like.
You can’t understand that I won’t leave ‘til we’re finished here, and then you’ll find out where it all went wrong.

I wrote a note to the jungle and it wrote me back that I was never crowned king of the jungle, so there’s and end to my horizon.
I took a ride, I took a ride. I wouldn’t go there without you.
Lets take a ride, we’ll take a ride. I wouldn’t leave here without you.

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea.

‘Cause you tear us apart, with all the things you don’t like.
You can’t understand that I won’t leave ‘til we’re finished here, and then you’ll find out where it all went wrong.

Nothing lasts forever, except you and me. (You are my mountain, you are my sea)
Love will last forever, between you and me.(You are my mountain, you are my sea)

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea.
I am a mountain, I am the sea

Step out the front door like a ghost
Into the fog where no one notices
The contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
The angels get a better view
Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.

I walk in the air between the rain
Through myself and back again
Where? I don’t know

Maria says she’s dying
Through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don’t know

Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates

Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand
She said she’d like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis
And she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
Just like she’s walking on a wire in the circus
She parks her car outside of my house
Takes her clothes off
Says she’s close to understanding Jesus
She knows she’s more than just a little misunderstood
She has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous

Round here we’re carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she’s slipping through my hands

Sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
Mama’s little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning

She says “it’s only in my head”
She says “Shhh I know it’s only in my head”

But the girl on the car in the parking lot
Says “Man you should try to take a shot
Can’t you see my walls are crumbling?”
Then she looks up at the building
Says she’s thinking of jumping
She says she’s tired of life
She must be tired of something

Round here she’s always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we’re never sent to bed early
and nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late

I can’t see nothing.. nothing round here
Will you catch if I’m falling
Will you catch me if I’m falling
Will you catch me cause I’m falling down on you

I said I’m under the gun around here
I’m innocent I’m under the gun around here
And I can’t see nothing
Nothing round here

You’ve been talking for an hour,
and I swear to God that I can’t hear a word you say
So would you come to me, come to me
I get caught up and the waves of conversation they wash over me
And they cover me, they cover me

Should I just pack my things and leave
Would I be a bigger man if I built a wall around your heart
and dared you to come in
I could lie to you and say I didn’t mean it
But hurts a funny thing and it makes you stronger

All is nothing in moderation
It’s a dirty feeling and it makes you stronger
Well I believe I’m just plain tired

Well all is nothing in moderation
Dirty feeling, strange sensation
I believe, I believe
Believe I’m tired