Kathryn’s Blog

In the quiet of the shadow
In the corner of a room
Darkness moves upon you
Like a cloud across the moon

You’re a-wearing all the silence
Of a constant that will turn
Like the windmill left deserted
Or the sun forever burn

So don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
Your whole life is here
No eleventh hour reprieve
So don’t forget to breathe

Keep your head above water
But don’t forget to breathe

And all the suffering that you’ve witnessed
And the hand prints on the wall
They remind you how it’s endless
How endlessly you fall

And the answer that you’re seeking
For the question that you found
Drives you further to confusion
As you lose your sense of ground

So don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
Your whole life is here
No eleventh hour reprieve
So don’t forget to breathe

Keep your head above water
But don’t forget to breathe

Breathe….

Don’t forget to breathe
Don’t forget to breathe
You know you are here
But you find you want to leave
So don’t forget to… breathe

Just breathe
Just breathe
Just breathe…
Just breathe…
Just breathe…

The tide is high
I’ve never been so low
You got room to grow

You can never look up
You can’t ever look down
You get kicked around

But I built it with sand
And I built it with rock
I built it with all of the
Things that I’m not
And I watch from the hill
As it burns to the ground
I can still see the smoke
From my train out of town

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

I close my eyes
Scared of what I saw
Are you mad at all?
Been an open book
Been a slamming door
Apple of the trojan war

(chorus)

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

Drink a little bit
Dance a little bit
Take a chance
I lose it all
I have no remorse no regrets
When I’m hanging from
This seventeenth floor

The tide is high
Never been so low
You got room to grow

Everything I build is breaking down
Everything I build is breaking down

Fire on the mountain
Through the freeze
Save yourself
There’s evil
In the garden
But you don’t see it
I can tell

How do you sleep while the city’s burning
Where do you go when you can’t go home
How do you drink when there’s blood in the water
Where do you turn when the world moves on
When the world moves on, hey
When the world moves on, [x3]
Yeah, oh Yeah, oh yeah world moves on
That world moves on, yeah

Feelin’ worn down like a piece of glass
Doesn’t take too much to get yourself to feed your monkey
Tell some white lies
Make and swallow them
You don’t see just how you got into this situation

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep for something better than the secrets you keep me down
Just lay down, here, close to me
And tell me what you want from me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

Wide awake now and your monkey’s dead
You so perfect that you never really need nobody
Put your hands down
You’re among your friends
You just take and take and take and take and take and take and

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep but you’re no better than the secrets you keep stay down
Just lay down, here, close to me
Pretend you’ll never leave me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

(Chorus)
Tell me what you want child
Give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

Two weeks late like a surplus reprieve
I found a hair the length of yours on my sleeve
I wound it round and round my finger so tight
It turned to purple and a pulse formed inside

I said I knew the beat ‘cause it matched your own beat
It’s become my engine my own source of heat
The sea between us only amplifies the sound waves
Every hum and echo and crash paints my cave.

The sun is gone and the flowers rot
Words are spaces between us
And I should’ve been drown in the rivers I’ve found of token lost
And I should’ve been down when you made me insecureSo break me down if it makes you feel right
And hate me now if it keeps you alright
You can break me down if it takes all your might
‘cause I’m so much more than meets the eye

Say whatever you have to say, I’ll stand by you.
Do whatever you have to do, to get it out and not become a reactionary
To hurt the ones you love you know you never meant to but you do
oh yeah you do

Still I need your sway, because you always pay for it
And I, and I need your soul cause you’re always soulful
And I and I need that heart, cause you’re always in the right places.

I took a bite out of a mountain range, thought my teeth would break the mountain down.
Lets go, I want to go all the way to the horizon.

I took a drink out of the ocean and I’m treading water there before I drown.
Lets dive, I want to dive to the bottom of the ocean.
I took a ride, I took a ride, I wouldn’t go there without you.
Lets take a ride, we’ll take a ride. I wouldn’t leave here without you.

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.

‘Cause you tear us apart, with all the things you don’t like.
You can’t understand that I won’t leave ‘til we’re finished here, and then you’ll find out where it all went wrong.

I wrote a note to the jungle and it wrote me back that I was never crowned king of the jungle, so there’s and end to my horizon.
I took a ride, I took a ride. I wouldn’t go there without you.
Lets take a ride, we’ll take a ride. I wouldn’t leave here without you.

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea.

‘Cause you tear us apart, with all the things you don’t like.
You can’t understand that I won’t leave ‘til we’re finished here, and then you’ll find out where it all went wrong.

Nothing lasts forever, except you and me. (You are my mountain, you are my sea)
Love will last forever, between you and me.(You are my mountain, you are my sea)

I am a mountain, I am the sea, you can’t take that away from me.
I am a mountain, I am the sea.
I am a mountain, I am the sea

Step out the front door like a ghost
Into the fog where no one notices
The contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
The angels get a better view
Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.

I walk in the air between the rain
Through myself and back again
Where? I don’t know

Maria says she’s dying
Through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don’t know

Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates

Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand
She said she’d like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis
And she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
Just like she’s walking on a wire in the circus
She parks her car outside of my house
Takes her clothes off
Says she’s close to understanding Jesus
She knows she’s more than just a little misunderstood
She has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous

Round here we’re carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she’s slipping through my hands

Sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
Mama’s little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning

She says “it’s only in my head”
She says “Shhh I know it’s only in my head”

But the girl on the car in the parking lot
Says “Man you should try to take a shot
Can’t you see my walls are crumbling?”
Then she looks up at the building
Says she’s thinking of jumping
She says she’s tired of life
She must be tired of something

Round here she’s always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we’re never sent to bed early
and nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late

I can’t see nothing.. nothing round here
Will you catch if I’m falling
Will you catch me if I’m falling
Will you catch me cause I’m falling down on you

I said I’m under the gun around here
I’m innocent I’m under the gun around here
And I can’t see nothing
Nothing round here

You’ve been talking for an hour,
and I swear to God that I can’t hear a word you say
So would you come to me, come to me
I get caught up and the waves of conversation they wash over me
And they cover me, they cover me

Well all is nothing in moderation
Dirty feeling, strange sensation
I believe, I believe
Believe I’m tired

 remember it well
The first time that I saw
Your head around the door
‘Cause mine stopped working

I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you’re gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
I remember december
And I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you’re gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
What the hell do you want?

I’m through with standin’ in line
To clubs I’ll never get in
It’s like the bottom of the ninth
And I’m never gonna win
This life hasn’t turned out
Quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me
(Yeah, so tell what you need)

I’ll need a.. a credit card that’s got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet—(Been there done that)—
I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)

I’m gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I’d even cut my hair and change my name

[CHORUS]
‘Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We’ll all stay skinny ‘cause we just won’t eat
And we’ll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger’s
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well…

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I’ll have the quesadilla, ha ha)

I’m gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I’m gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I’d even cut my hair
And change my name

‘Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We’ll all stay skinny ‘cause we just won’t eat
And we’ll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger’s
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we’ll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
Today’s who’s who
They’ll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody’s got a
Drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

I’m gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
From a Pez dispenser

Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip synch ‘em every night so I don’t get ‘em wrong

Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We’ll all stay skinny ‘cause we just won’t eat
And we’ll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger’s
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we’ll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
Today’s who’s who
They’ll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody’s got a
Drug dealer on speed dial,well

Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar

Are you calling for our last dance?
I see it in your eyes … in your eyes
I could use the same old lines … but I’ll singShine on, just shine on
Close your eyes and they’ll all be gone
They can scream and shout that they’ve been sold out, but it paid for the cloud that we’re dancing on
So shine on, just shine on
With your smile just as bright as the sun
Cause they’re all just slaves to the Gods they’ve made
But you and I, just shone, just shone

And when silence greets my last goodbye
The words I need are in your eyes
And I’ll sing …..

Shine on, just shine on
Close your eyes and they’ll all be gone
They can scream and shout that they’ve been sold out but it paid for the cloud that we’re dancing on
So shine on, just shine on
With your smile just as bright as the sun
Cause they’re all just slaves to the Gods they’ve made
But you and I just shone, just shone

So shine on, just shine on
Close your eyes and they’ll all be gone
They can scream and shout that they’ve been sold out, but it paid for the cloud that we’re dancing on
So shine on, just shine on
With your smile just as bright as the sun
Cause they’re all just slaves to the Gods they’ve made
But you and I just shone, just shone

So what the fuck is this UK
Gunnin’ with this US of A
In Iraq and Iran and in Afghanistan

Does not a day go by
Without the Israeli Air Force
Fail to drop its bombs from the sky?

How many mothers to cry?
How many sons have to die?
How many missions left to fly over Palestine?
‘Cause as a matter of facts
It’s a pact, it’s an act
These are illegal attacks
So bring the soldiers back
These are illegal attacks
It’s contracts for contacts
I’m singing concrete facts
So bring the soldiers back

What mean that you beat my people
What mean that you beat my people
And grind the faces of the poor

So tell me just how come were the Taliban
Sat burning incense in Texas
Roaming round in a Lexus
Sittin’ on six billion oil drums
Down with the Dow Jones, up on the Nasdaq
Pushed into the war zones

It’s a commercial crusade
‘Cause all the oil men get paid
And only so many soldiers come home
It’s a commando crusade
A military charade
And only so many soldiers come home

Soldiers, soldiers come home
Soldiers come home

Through all the blood and sweat
Nobody can forget
It ain’t the size of the dog in the fight
It’s the size of the fight in the dog on the day or the night
There’s no time to reflect
On the threat, the situation, the bark nor the bite
These are commercial crusades
‘Cos all the oil men get paid
These are commando crusades
Commando tactical rape
And from the streets of New York and Baghdad to Tehran and Tel Aviv
Bring forth the prophets of the Lord
From dirty bastards fillin’ pockets
With the profits of greed

These are commercial crusades
Commando tactical raids
Playin’ military charades to get paid

And who got the devils?
And who got the Lords?
Build yourself a mountain – Drink up in the fountain
Soldiers come home
Soldiers come home
Soldiers come home
Soldiers come home

What mean ya that you beat my people
What mean ya that you beat my people
And grind the faces of the poor.

I’m waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every morning before,
now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it’s gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour and I
started staring at the passengers who’re waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?
but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we’re gonna find out

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let’s see how far we’ve come
let’s see how far we’ve come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we’re gonna pretend,
let’s see how far we’ve come
let’s see how far we’ve come

i think it turned ten o’clock but i don’t really know
then i can’t remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and i couldn’t stop myself
i started running but there’s no where to run to
i sat down on the street and took a look at myself
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
say your goodbyes if you’ve got someone you can say goodbye to

i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we’re gonna find out
let’s see how far we’ve come
let’s see how far we’ve come

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we’re gonna pretend,
let’s see how far we’ve come
let’s see how far we’ve come

its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there’s no one at home
it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it’s over for me and it’s over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there’s no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it’s over for me and it’s over for you

but i believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well i guess we’re gonna find out
let’s see how far we’ve come
let’s see how far we’ve come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we’re gonna pretend

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuseIs that all right?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that all right?
If you don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that all right?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that all right
With you?

You can hold her hand
And show her how you cry
Explain to her your weakness
So she understands
And then roll over and die
You can brave decisions
Before you crumble up inside
Spend your time asking everyone else’s permission
Then run away and hide

Or you can sit on chimneys
Put some fire up your ass
No need to know what you’re doing or waiting for
But if anyone should ask
Tell them I’ve been licking coconut skins
And we’ve been hanging out
Tell them God just dropped by to forgive our sins
And relieve us our doubt
La la la la la la la…

Oh you can hold her eggs
But your basket has a hole
You can lie between her legs and go looking for
Tell her you’re searching for her soul
You can wait for ages
Watch your compost turn to coal
Time is contagious
Everybody’s getting old

So you can sit on chimneys
Put some fire up your ass
No need to know what you’re doing or looking for
But if anyone should ask
Tell them I’ve been cooking coconut skins
And we’ve been hanging out
Tell them God just dropped by to forgive our sins
And relieve us our doubt
La la la la la la la… �

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water’s getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I’d see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is all right

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If i’d see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright

They’re gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They’re gonna give you a smirk
‘Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They’re gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You’re never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you’re troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

If it weren’t for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren’t so wise beyond your years I would’ve been able to control myself
If it weren’t for my attention you wouldn’t have been successful and
If it weren’t for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

You’re essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You’re kind of my protege and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I’ve more than honored your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history’s reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don’t tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you’re such a pretty thing when you’re done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime