Kathryn’s Blog

Do you know just what it’s like to burn inside so often?
To see the life you give is not in vain and not forgotten
To feel it all…. i feel it burn in time
I give it all…. and still i feel denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out….. bleeding out

Is there no place safe, and nothing sacred for the living
I feel the life inside me stain the ground with love and yearning
To feel it all (to feel it all)
To feel it come alive
To give it all (to give it all)
So you won’t be denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out

Be the change you wish to see, and all the world gives something

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out
Bleed…

The Eminem Song…

Firstly…wow we must of been poorer than Eminem – we couldn’t afford a camcorder…

Right…okay here we go…
“Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it”

Again…much poorer than eminem….we never had a college fund and what? Never heard of a bank?! They give you funky things like interest…

“And if that mockingbird don’t sing and that ring don’t shine
I’mma break that birdies neck
I’d go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don’t fuck with dad (haha)”

So…if you’re not happy with something just go and beat someone up.
Yep…great message for your child….how haven’t you won father of the year?

At least on the upside he isn’t banging on about killing his wife this time

You and I,
Are here, underwater
Seconds are so dear, underwater
Searching for a light, to draw me closer
I hold my breath in tight, bring me closer
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?

It’s not so bad down here, underwater
Once you get past the fear, underwater
Since you through the haze, it’s like a memory
I’ve been down here for days, have you seen me?
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?

It’s all the same for me, underwater
There’s nothing much to see, underwater
I cannot make a sound, but I can listen
I can’t tell up from down, now I’m listenin’
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?
You’re just in sight, will you save my life again?

You and I are here, underwater

Welllllllllllll I went to the gym and the start of the programme was fine – warm up on the cycle machine for 6 minutes, then sitting leg presses, 4kg dumb bell repeats, rowing machine, um some chain pull thingiemuhbob and I think Im supposed to do chest presses but it hasn’t been put on my card and i haven’t been shown how to do it. All of which is fine. What killed me was the 15 min treadmill walk (not even running). Sweatin like you would not believe. Very glad they have showers and that I brought a change of shirt!

Well hell hasn’t it been a bit crappy for me lately.

My digital tv set top box receiver (aka digibox) when kapooey and i had to get it replaced. With the old one I had the aerial set just right so that I could receive all but 2 channels perfectly. With this one…well it took me a while to get the tv to pick up that all the channels existed and as for receiving them all? HAH! Not all at the same time. I have to fiddle about with the aerial.

My net connection kept dropping this week – every 30 secs at one point – tres irritating as you can imagine. When I plugged in a phone there was no tone, phoned the phone company on the other telephone line and was told an engineer would call today….thankfully I wasn’t holding my breath or I’ll be dead several times over. Saying that Ive now been connected for 17 whole minutes without disconnecting. So it might be an intermittant problem.

I’m still suffering with my sinuses. Today I have a permanent ache just over my right eye (and a constantly running nose). For anyone who hasn’t suffered with sinus pain before – it’s like you’ve whacked that spot off something. If you touch it feels bruised and it just won’t go away. Unfortunately the dual action sinus pills haven’t worked at all . Anyways decided to go down (drive) to the chemist to pick the pills (unprescribed but you gotta ask the chemist) up. Bloody car wouldnt start. So I walked. Came back feeling awful. Sweatin like a pig (I hate being sweaty) and just b_l_a_h. Tried the car again….it starts! Fucking typical!

Oh and im going to the gym tomorrow to start my “regime” .

On the positive won £39.99 on a scratch card and £10 on the thunderball!

and sorry for the whining