Kathryn’s Blog

Feelin’ worn down like a piece of glass
Doesn’t take too much to get yourself to feed your monkey
Tell some white lies
Make and swallow them
You don’t see just how you got into this situation

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep for something better than the secrets you keep me down
Just lay down, here, close to me
And tell me what you want from me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

Wide awake now and your monkey’s dead
You so perfect that you never really need nobody
Put your hands down
You’re among your friends
You just take and take and take and take and take and take and

(Refrain)
Late at night, late at night
You weep but you’re no better than the secrets you keep stay down
Just lay down, here, close to me
Pretend you’ll never leave me

(Chorus)
And I said
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

(Chorus)
Tell me what you want child
Give me the meltdown
Take it out on me this time around
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around
Hey now, give me the meltdown
Take it out on me, don’t let me down
Oh no, it ain’t over now
I can feel the world spin around, around, around

So I had to go back to the doctors because my glucose tolerance test was a bit high.

Just FYI http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glucose_tolerance_test. Although I hadn’t been fasting and it was only just above the level so I’m not worried.  Have to have another one done, where I do fast, have a sugary drink, wait 2 hours, get tested again.  Fun!

On slightly cheerier news the diet seems to be going okay – lost around 4 pounds in a week!

So I thought it would be a super idea to do an before picture

So lots n lots to catch up on.

Firstly – getting my room done.  More importantly getting a new bed, which I desperately need.   The down side is that I’ve had to clear all my stuff out .  Including taking the posters off the wall, which makes my room seems echo-y.  However here is a before picture (although I possibly should’ve taken it before I cleared everything)

You may find yourself with some between photos .

 In other news – went to see the doctor about getting some help losing weight and now I’m on something called Xenical.  Haven’t eaten any sweets since Monday (yeah yeah big deal) and I’ve been out walking for 30 mins for nearly every day (cept Thursday although I did a bit) and yesterday (because it was raining but seeing as how cleared out most of my books n wot not and carried them up to the attic, I figured I was covered).  Supposed to go back in 4-weeks to see how I’m getting on but they took some blood and sent me out a letter asking me to make a “non urgent” appointment to talk about it.  I’m hoping it’s just standard.

I’m just wondering if it’s about my cholesterol.  Now last time I had it taken it was quite low (3.9 I think) and these tablets work by stopping your body from absorbing 30% of your intake of fat (and yes there was some seepage – sandwiches with marie rose sauce are NOT recommended).  So if I had low cholesterol, wouldn’t it suggest that my fat intake isn’t that high?  I guess I’ll find out tomorrow.  The hardest thing is keeping it all secret from my mum.  Don’t ask me why I want it to be. I don’t know.  I know that I feel really guilty that I can’t seem to diet without just doing it but bleh.  We’ll see.

Oh and here is a screenshot of my new(ish) WoW character Layton with her cat Casper