Kathryn’s Blog

The sinuses are starting to act up again

Well it wasn’t me sadly…..

I spotted another problem with the theme but managed to figure it out myself (yay me! )

My phone now sends MMSs still won’t send emails scratches head but I think I might take into a carphonewarehouse shop and ask for help! However Im getting a bluetooth adaptar aka a dongle (I have no idea why!) from ebay. It will allow me to transfer stuff from the PC to the Phone (and vice versa) including pictures and MP3s!

While I’m here and being all random like, I’d just like to recommend The Magician’s Guild part of the Black Magician Trilogy by Trudi Canavan. Had the books for ages, got them because I really liked the covers and now I’ve finally gotten round to reading em* and I’m really enjoying it.

*At work I was reading “wimmin’s” magazines during my break – ie true life stories, however Ive been trying to tighten the belt financially and since I’ve stopped reading on the bus, I decided to bring a book instead. My collection had been building up. Most of them are trek books and I wasn’t too keen on people seeing me reading them. Yes on some level I ashamed of my trekkieness :}. So I started with my lent books – The Keys to the Kingdom series (well Mister Monday, Grim Tuesday and Drowned Wednesday) by Garth Nix, admittedly a kids series but very very good. The Supernaturalists by Eoin Colfer (writer of the Artemis Fowl series, I still have the Opal Deception to read!). And now finally I’ve got round the Black Magician Trilogy. I figure that once I finish my non trek books, I’ll get up the nerve to read em in work. Either that or start the Lord of the Rings again.

For some bizarre reason my terminally straight hair has developed a kink on the right side. It’s never had a kink before, but now it goes in then out and is fuzzy. It’s odd, I don’t know if it’s the way the hairdresser cut my hair or what but I can’t get it to go straight again.

Right…decided to leave the theme as is, mostly because I can’t figure out how to edit it and partly because I can’t be bothered trying to figure out how to edit it . It looks good though and much credit to the creator http://themes.star-shaped.org/

Got my new phone and it is pretty and very very girly. For example it can tell you when the best time to get pregnant is. Now I would of thought that anyone dedicated enough to check that kind of thing, would be taking a bit more scientific approach to it. Anyhow, here is an actual picture of it.

However I can’t seem to send media messages or emails on it. I can’t figure out why not on that one either. Not having a great time technical wise this week!

Ohh I have moved in work, well moved like 2 months ago and I just mean to another part of the room. I’m not sure if like it as much. A couple of them just phone in for days off, even though we’re short handed. The new girl doesn’t actually seem to do anywork, just talks, and when she does ask you about something doesn’t actually listen to your reply and puts the stuff back on the pile. Then there’s the oldest…...I swear to god I never realised that someone who had been working there for so many years could be so entirely incompetent…it’s a joke, a total joke. Another person who will ask you about something and you’ll give them an explicit answer and they ignore you anyway. Not to mention that if she has a topic of conversation she bangs on and on and on and on and on about it….eg bird flu (ARGH! WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE!), her giving up her smoking and what the smoking was doing to her and the weather. She’ll tell you the same thing over and over and then repeat it as other member of the section come in…..makes you want to bang your head off the table.

Now there’s 2 off sick for fuck knows how long, we don’t have an AA who basically requests files, traces files when post comes in (which believe it or not is quite useful cause you can waste a good hour trying to match stuff up), the “woman” is training. and the other who is only part time is off for another week. So there’s 2 of us doing 6 desks….and we’re getting into the busy season.

Oh and our lovely employers are trying to stiff us again with years pay award. Grrrrrrr! Seriously I think they really resent the fact that they have to pay us at all. I especially appreciate when they try and indicate that we’re really well paid (hahahahahahahahahaha), by quoting the pay of someone higher up the food chain than the majority of civil service are. I also don’t see why I should be paid less than someone in England for doing the same bloody job. Athough at this point I’d just like my pay rise please! Hypocrites, can’t wait for the next survey so they can ignore the fact that 97% of their work force is unhappy with their rates of pay.

My little car is not going so well. Had a problem which got sorted out, but now my dad has cracked the wing mirror and the rubber is coming off the back windscreen wiper. I wished I’d traded it in when they phoned. I told them to phone back in Jan and now Im wondering if I can phone them. Poor baby, served me well if not a lot and now I’m anxious to get rid .

Oh…I caught the fnale of Six Feet Under the other night, I was extremely impressed with the ending and also with the song Breathe Me by Sia. I highly recommend that you check it out post haste http://umusic.ca/sia/

There’s nothing on the telly tonight , but Im off to watch the lottery, cause it might be me!

Apparently my chosen theme doesn’t like comments and won’t show them (cause I get so many!), so I’ve gone back to the default until I can figure the fucking thing out!

Ah well instead of the really purple I have to opt for subtly purple. I will be working on it at some point to change the link colour n stuff. christ everytime this crap changes I have to learn how to do it allllllll over again. It is not like riding a bike I can tell you now. I used to be able to do a semi decent basic basic basic webpage (and by decent I mean…..incredibly amateur) but for the life of me I can’t remember the tags and all that anymore.

Time for a wee update type thingie muh bob.

Getting an upgrade on my phone – bit of a saga in doing it (the post code I provided didn’t match the one on my credit card but according to my bank it does?). Should have it soon – It’s pretty, see!



Not doing so well with the gym, didn’t go for a couple a weeks and managed to put most of the weight I lost back on ‘snot fair whine, whine, whine


Hmm otherwise life is good, fine, lovely

I dunno, just not feeling very sociable lately

I really really really hate spammers

Yes I pretty much disappeared off the face of the earth again. Soz! (Cause you know Im assuming that someone other than me reads this – hahahahahahaha). Basically the folks are off to Jersey (channel islands) and Im off work. Ive got myself totally absorbed in some fan fiction (what fan fiction Im not telling you as Im slightly embarassed to be reading it), Im actually tempted to write some myself. I haven’t written any ff since my JetC forays a few years ago. i suck at it. Id love to be literary but I don’t really have the vocab and i have trouble expanding on my ideas. I am getting slightly narked off at the poor spelling, grammar and wot not on some of these fics. Specially the one at the moment where in one chapter there was used for they’re 3 times. Still it’s only a kid writing, and people get incredibly pissed when you point these things out to them, so I’ll try and ignore it. Argh your instead of you’re – god dammit! How the fuck do these people get through school? Ive also been absorbed in playing Might and Magic VIII (with a walkthrough naturally )

Anyhow….on a more interesting note, I have splashed out and bought a lap top. Today in fact. It’s being delivered. Slightly implusive since I need one like I need a hole in the head, but I’ve wanted one for ages. Blah. I’m so weak . Can’t wait till I get it though I’ll be able to type away in peace and quiet instead of in the middle of the house It’s a Packard Bell. It’s probably crap since I don’t really know about these things but I just need it to work.

The brother has naturally been a total pain in the arse since the parents have been away. Fortunately he isn’t off work like me so his friends have only been over at the weekends (I don’t mind the mess it’s the fact they’re so friggin noisy and I’m trying to sleep, they even go outside – we don’t live in the middle of nowhere, there are other houses around us). Last night the on/off girlfriend who has just popped out kid numero 3 (and she’s my age), stayed over. So I think it’s on. I’m still not sure who the father of the child is (who btw throws half her food up every time she eats but is still a chubby little thing, and very smiley). Since no one has referred to me as Aunty, the brother as Daddy or the Parents as Granny/Granda I’m assuming it isn’t the brother – however the brother apparently isn’t paying housekeeping despite having a full time job. I should probably just ask. Ashleigh would. I should get her in the same room as the brother & the girlfriend. She’d ask straight out!

In other news I’ve been keeping up with the gym visits (even on Sunday when I had a hangover) and Ive lost about 9lbs, however I think I might have a tendency to retain water so I’m getting one of those body fat indicator thingies . Unfortunately Ive been totally pigging out this week (due to the mother not being around to nag) so I’ll probably pile it all again Hmm never mind.

Well I guess that’ll do for the moment!

There are children standing here,
Arms outstretched into the sky,
Tears drying on their face.
He has been here.
Brothers lie in shallow graves.
Fathers lost without a trace.
A nation blind to their disgrace,
Since he’s been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.

Houses burnt beyond repair.
The smell of death is in the air.
A woman weeping in despair says,
He has been here.
Tracer lighting up the sky.
It’s another families’ turn to die.
A child afraid to even cry out says,
He has been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.

There are children standing here,
Arms outstretched into the sky,
But no one asks the question why,
He has been here.
Old men kneel to accept their fate.
Wives and daughters cut and raped.
A generation drenched in hate.
Yes, he has been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.

Ahhh more mundane ramblings from my ramblingly mundane life!

I’m typing this from work, when I’m supposed to be working, I feel so naughty! :K

Anyways…..the craic….

Well my watch stopped working and apparently it isn’t the battery. it’s off for a service which will take 4-6 weeks and cost me about £42…..if I didn’t really like the watch…unfortunately the other watches I have aren’t working either. Presumably that is battery related but I can’t be without a watch for 6 weeks so I bought a cheap one – it stopped working a week later. So Ive got another on now, which is amazingly too big. It probably would of been cheaper to get an entirely new watch!

As I mentioned earlier I’ve been going to the gym and yes I have kept it up, at least 3 times a week for the past 9 weeks or so. I definitely lost 4 lbs but I think it’s a couple more pounds than that overall. Course it’s only in the past couple of weeks that Ive tried to cut out the totally unhealthy stuff.

Wahey! Managed to find a purple theme, although Id like to change it about a bit, I have no idea how to do so – so work in progress!

Well fiddled about with the css a bit and I think I’ll have to be satisfied for now….

Hmm yes new layout, had to upgrade and apparently I can’t keep my lovely garish theme. I don’t know if I’ll be able to figure out how to get it back to what it was unfortunately

I am still here
Well kinda

Just felt like being all anonymous.

Nothing desperately exciting to tell. Been going to the gym all regular like although Im concerned I don’t think I’m dropping any/much weight although other folks have commented on it. I’ll jump on the scales at boots again and see what they say although Im not holding my breath, I just wonder at what point do you go to the dr. Besides which Im a raging hypochondriac, but I know that I am which makes me very reluctant to go.

Anyhoo…..parents are off on holiday for 2 whole weeks in less than a fortnight and guess who’s taking 2 weeks of work?

yup

Me.

hopefully my brother is going to be buggering off as well since he was being all cagey like. The house to myself. I can walk round nekkid muwhahahahahahahahaha! Be thankful I don’t have a web cam!

Do you know just what it’s like to burn inside so often?
To see the life you give is not in vain and not forgotten
To feel it all…. i feel it burn in time
I give it all…. and still i feel denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out….. bleeding out

Is there no place safe, and nothing sacred for the living
I feel the life inside me stain the ground with love and yearning
To feel it all (to feel it all)
To feel it come alive
To give it all (to give it all)
So you won’t be denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out

Be the change you wish to see, and all the world gives something

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out
Bleed…

The Eminem Song…

Firstly…wow we must of been poorer than Eminem – we couldn’t afford a camcorder…

Right…okay here we go…
“Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it”

Again…much poorer than eminem….we never had a college fund and what? Never heard of a bank?! They give you funky things like interest…

“And if that mockingbird don’t sing and that ring don’t shine
I’mma break that birdies neck
I’d go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don’t fuck with dad (haha)”

So…if you’re not happy with something just go and beat someone up.
Yep…great message for your child….how haven’t you won father of the year?

At least on the upside he isn’t banging on about killing his wife this time

You and I,
Are here, underwater
Seconds are so dear, underwater
Searching for a light, to draw me closer
I hold my breath in tight, bring me closer
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?

It’s not so bad down here, underwater
Once you get past the fear, underwater
Since you through the haze, it’s like a memory
I’ve been down here for days, have you seen me?
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?

It’s all the same for me, underwater
There’s nothing much to see, underwater
I cannot make a sound, but I can listen
I can’t tell up from down, now I’m listenin’
I feel your touch, will you pull me up again?
You’re just in sight, will you save my life again?

You and I are here, underwater

Welllllllllllll I went to the gym and the start of the programme was fine – warm up on the cycle machine for 6 minutes, then sitting leg presses, 4kg dumb bell repeats, rowing machine, um some chain pull thingiemuhbob and I think Im supposed to do chest presses but it hasn’t been put on my card and i haven’t been shown how to do it. All of which is fine. What killed me was the 15 min treadmill walk (not even running). Sweatin like you would not believe. Very glad they have showers and that I brought a change of shirt!

Well hell hasn’t it been a bit crappy for me lately.

My digital tv set top box receiver (aka digibox) when kapooey and i had to get it replaced. With the old one I had the aerial set just right so that I could receive all but 2 channels perfectly. With this one…well it took me a while to get the tv to pick up that all the channels existed and as for receiving them all? HAH! Not all at the same time. I have to fiddle about with the aerial.

My net connection kept dropping this week – every 30 secs at one point – tres irritating as you can imagine. When I plugged in a phone there was no tone, phoned the phone company on the other telephone line and was told an engineer would call today….thankfully I wasn’t holding my breath or I’ll be dead several times over. Saying that Ive now been connected for 17 whole minutes without disconnecting. So it might be an intermittant problem.

I’m still suffering with my sinuses. Today I have a permanent ache just over my right eye (and a constantly running nose). For anyone who hasn’t suffered with sinus pain before – it’s like you’ve whacked that spot off something. If you touch it feels bruised and it just won’t go away. Unfortunately the dual action sinus pills haven’t worked at all . Anyways decided to go down (drive) to the chemist to pick the pills (unprescribed but you gotta ask the chemist) up. Bloody car wouldnt start. So I walked. Came back feeling awful. Sweatin like a pig (I hate being sweaty) and just b_l_a_h. Tried the car again….it starts! Fucking typical!

Oh and im going to the gym tomorrow to start my “regime” .

On the positive won £39.99 on a scratch card and £10 on the thunderball!

and sorry for the whining

So…..I’ve decided to finally sign up for a gym and see about shifting some weight – Im going to meet one of the training people on Sunday to be shown the equipment and get a health thingie- the main attraction of losing weight is having smaller boobs (or at least there is a remote possibility of me then being eligible for a reduction on the NHS) but I find the whole thing very difficult. I am a stick my head in the sand kind of person and I certainly don’t like dicussing such things face to face, so my mother kindly inviting people along really isn’t helping any. Anyhoo…I’ll see how it goes, but I haven’t exercised since the short lived diet class a couple of years. Which is when I worked out me trying to eat healthily wasn’t really going to work since I had to cut out all things naughty totally.

Oh and now that my back pain has gone by sinuses (well on the right side of my face anyhow) are acting up . If I were a horse they’d shoot me! and I now have more drugs than Boots the chemist!

Just a friend word of advice to anyone thinking of buying hipsters…

Has anyone commented on your “love handles”? Perhaps suggested that you have “child bearing hips”. If so then please, please, please do get a pair of hipsers. If you really have to buy them please please make sure you are not “going commando” or wearing bikini briefs – I don’t want to have to see another woman’s arse crack again!