Kathryn’s Blog

I’m getting a fucking cold

which means I didn’t sleep at all last night

my left nostril when I blow it comes out a bit bloody (which it has been for a while) and my right nostril is running like a tap

all very horrible

So Plan A decided not to reply again so I opted for Plan B (with a Plan C in case Plan B didn’t work out).

What this is means is that I’ve got tickets booked for OotP. Hurrah muchly!

and look now you can see said online ticket!

Yes, yes, still shit at the old updates…..and now I’m doing this from work (well started at work and finished at home – I was supposed to be off my lunch and the AA kept hovering).

Speaking of work – constantly talking woman is now off for the month! Hurrah!

So…broke the filling on my front tooth, about the time my half way through a root canal tooth decided that hot stuff really was agonising to it. fortunately got it fixed and didn’t get charged – hurrah! Still not all that keen on hot stuff though. Also the bugger is going private wahhhhhh bloody dentists

You’ll be thrilled to know that the BBC finally showed Kill Bill 2 (nearly 2 months later) on BBC2 bizarrely. Not that I wildly love Kill Bill it’s just nice to see the conclusion

Steve is pissing me off again with the whole not replying business. Seriously – would it kill you to reply with a “no sorry can’t” would it? would it really?! Of course if I bug “him” about it I get the “I’m so exhausted treatment”. So point ranting about it I guess.

Very Very sad is over for a while. There’s going to be an xmas special but it has Kylie Minogue on it and I’m not overly excited about that. It kind of ruins the brief illusion of it being real if they stick a whopping big star in there. Also – Kylie….well I’m a bit apathetic about her. However I shall reserve judgement. Also we’re losing Martha for half a season (bah) . Whilst I’ve been defending her on a who forum and I do like her, I don’t think I’d really be that bothered by having a new companion. One of the main reasons I was so keen on Martha was because I really disliked Rose, and the main reason I disliked Rose was because I disliked Bille Piper, which made it hard for me to overlook all the irritating character flaws which normally wouldn’t bother me.

In more pleasing news
and then a week after that

I’m just so excited! Christ that’s terribly sad.

Decided I was going to re read the books (well decided ages ago but wanted to wait till nearer the time) but can I find the philosophers stone or order of the phoenix? Can I heck. So went and bought them new. Course if I could be a bit more determined I know I could definitely find OotP, maybe…..perhaps.

So I guess that’s it for now

and remember – throwing inflammable things that are likely to explode onto a bonfire, isn’t big, isn’t clever and really isn’t funny.

They’re gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They’re gonna give you a smirk
‘Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They’re gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You’re never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you’re troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

did you ever just want to scream “SHUT THAT FUCKING CHILD UP!”?

OMFG what a horrible morning

First I can’t be arsed to get out of bed so I don’t get to have a shower and end up running late.

The cat is being all weird and of course won’t go out.(because it’s pissing down)

Since I’m running late I’m going to get the 7.40 bus which for some reason I nearly always miss or have to run to – I have to run to – at this point my jeans decide to start fucking falling down and I drop my bag. Fortunately the busman stops for me. I have no doubt though that I have the few passengers a generous flash of my very generous bum.

I then found that I forgotten my little free plastic cup that I can use to get my coffee of a morning (actually I’d left it at work but you know one thing on top of another).

So I get off the bus and run into the shop, then go into the coffee shop (which has no sandwiches so I’m going to have to go out later). On my way out I find out that my stupid umbrella is broken (you can’t stand under my umbrella ahah-ah)

I’ll have to see what the weather is doing later because I was supposed to be buying my dad his fathers day present (some jean shorts).

I make into work and one of the more annoying colleagues is doing her tuneless humming thing which makes me want to smack her!

The Belfast Telegraph headline that they post outside shops etc declared “More rain on the way!”

No shit Sherlock! More rain in Northern Ireland?! Who would of thought it! 3 days without rain is a “dry spell”

Of course in the paper it’s “More heavy rain on the way”

Which makes much more sense as a headline.

Fortunately I live up a hill so I’m okay (Jack)

It’s just constant chatter….....not even necessarily talking to someone but just a running a commentary

whats even more irritating is when someone else is explaining how to do something that should already been know, talking over the person commenting about how silly you are and how you should know this. JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN!

Man I suck my resolution to update daily has fallen by the wayside.

So….firstly….went back to the Doctors re the lip thing (black mark like I’ve been chewing my pen). She’s referring me to the plastic surgeons – it doesn’t really bother me but I can’t get rid of it. Well anyways – lets see if I can get an appointment. If nothing else they can get a tick for something easy and quick.

Secondly – I’d like to offer my anti summer rant

1. It’s too damn hot! I’m a big lass – me and heat do not go well together and I dont find sweating like a pig pleasant. Also I loathe my legs, I can’t bear to look at them let alone let anyone else look at them so they remain covered up – not nice in hot weather
2. It’s too damn hot to sleep this means that I have to keep my windows open at night which leads to
3. A general increase in the bug population who like to congregate in my room and
4. lack of sleep since the birdies are quite noisy and so are the cars
5. I have hayfever
6. I don’t tan and I don’t want to tan – leathery skin and skin cancer do not sound like my idea of a good time. Plus I’m allergic to aftersun cream.

There’s more but I can just can’t remember it right now. Come back winter!

If it weren’t for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren’t so wise beyond your years I would’ve been able to control myself
If it weren’t for my attention you wouldn’t have been successful and
If it weren’t for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

You’re essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You’re kind of my protege and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I’ve more than honored your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history’s reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don’t tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you’re such a pretty thing when you’re done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

How long can one person spend on personal phone calls during their working day….

Whilst in what in the absence of intelligence that is the Religion and Spirituality section of yahoo answers (I know I shouldn’t tease the less fortunate). I came upon this gem of a link Fundies say the Darnedest Things!

It proves my theory that people are stupid.

It’s a long story but I;m having ethicall dilema about whether to tell them they’re being take along for a ride. OTOH they’ll have fun making sock puppets.

My arm’s sore nasty nurse! i didn’t look and I still felt sick and faint – such a wimp.

Feeling a wee bit better about earlier events now. As I said – don’t mind being thrown over for a fella. Still a “can’t Im already booked” wouldn’t have killed anyone. Have to see if I tag along with the brother but I don’t think he has any credit on his phone. Bah!

(okay 3rd time is the charm posting this without it all being centered)

I meant to post yesterday but no biggie eh?

So the saga continues. On the site that updates, I got a reply to a pointless comment but not to my original mail message. by text I got a “wtf are you on about” reply to a pointless text (so I guess the number hasn’t changed then) and then no reply to the 2 other messages. someone is getting a phone call at about 7.30 tonight.

Anyways – went to the DR to get the BP checked (last went in November and was told to come back in 6 months). Had that health check thing back in September and it was 132/94. Went to the Drs and it was 144/86 2 months later it was 134/86 and now it’s down to 120/80 which is basically the max of fine. Have to to back tomorrow for some blood tests though

Yeah okay so apparently he says “how would you suggest I clear my work apart from actually sitting down and doing it”.

Um how about trying to sit down and do it!? Stop arsing about with phone calls about private business and 2 hour lunches. She informed us that she “didn’t have the swingers” to actually say that.

Fair enough!

that it’s not a good idea to use a site that updates when you were last on.

Apparently I’m not worth replying to – which has obviously done wonders for the old self esteem.

is it very sad that I’m excited that tonight Doctor Who is on and I’m having a chinese takeway? Well of course it’s sad but just how sad eh?

Apparently there’s a rumour that (soon to be ex) Prime Minister Tony Blair was going to appear in Doctor Who along side Kylie Minogue (WTF?)

So of course someone has taken the opporunity to play with paint shop!

Heyhey it’s Friday!

and no overtime so I get a nice lovely lie in….hurrah!

I did plan to try and update this daily but …...ah well this is why I don’t make New Years resolutions.

I’ve had to lock comments to the Everybody’s gone to War post as it was just getting constant spam. So it can bounce back now. Sorry if any one wanted to comment.

So I emailed a friend today and managed to get some stuff off my chest about another friend which was good, but I thought I’d express some of it here because it really is kind of cathartic. (You know I thought I’d make sure I’d spelt cathartic right and I’m kind of surprised at it’s meaning Cathartic.

Have you ever felt as if a friend was dumping you? Well my friend (who we’re calling) Steve has another friend (who we’re calling) Bob. Bob and I don’t really know each other but he seems like a nice enough person. Now I don’t mind Steve having other friends, I’m not a weird possessive freak, but for a while I’ve been feeling ever so excluded.

Steve and I used to go to the cinema a lot and (s)he’d come to the weekly pub quiz every week. However for the past wee while not so much and now every time we meet up Bob is there. Again thats fine but unfortunately they’re either talking about things they’ve done or previous discussions that I’ve not been part of. Sometimes I just feel ignored.

Comments have also been made such as “Bob and I went to the pub to celebrate my graduation”. Hurrah! Why didn’t you ask me. Or we went to the cinema and Bob made a comment which suggested he and Steve had already been to a premiere at another cinema. Which makes me feel that Steve is just doing his(her) duty by seeing the same film twice and again would it really kill you to have asked me?

Now I’ve found out Steve is off to London. Whether it’s with Bob or not I don’t know but I don’t recall being told about it. (Although I think it might be to see a show). I also haven’t received Steve’s new phone number. Even though Steve deigned to reply to a text to tell me (s)he was getting the new number on Tuesday.

However I’ve been told that we have to have a sit down talk about something that happened at a restaurant the other week. When I dunno but it didn’t sound like a “we shouldn’t be friends anymore” type discussion so I’m getting really mixed signals.

Now I know that Bob & Steve aren’t seeing each other but to be honest I think it would be easier if they were because I could understand being excluded for a boyfriend. Perhaps it’s because I’m such a boring bitch. Maybe Bob really can’t stand me. I just don’t know.

Anyway I don’t think I need to make any kind of “perhaps I’m over reacting” statement because I know I’m not. If anything I’m under reacting to avoid a confrontation. So here I am feeling a bit hurt, confused and angry.